Natural Hair Laziness
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I will begin with I am not a hair person. I have never been a hair person. I got my first perm at seven years old. (yes my mom was sick of my screaming every time she tried to press it) I always put it in a pony tail. My hair is thick and even with a perm it would never be totally tame.
It would look great most of the time when done by a professional. One night sleep and that was over. Also a perm couldn’t tame the thickness. That is why I was so addicted to relaxers I wanted this bone straight hair. No one took the time to tell me the perm wasn’t going to do it. It would never look the way I imagined.
Now I am natural. I finally cut off all the perm. I can see my hair texture and I have to say I love it. I had no idea what was under those chemical. It has this spiral curl that I didn’t know existed on my head. I was totally in the dark of what my true hair looked like. How could I, I been trying to fry it to death in one way or another since I was seven.
This is all to say I am still not a hair person and very lazy. When I first started growing out the perm I was trying all kinds of youtube tutorials. It was a new toy I wanted to play with. Well that has been over for a while. It has been buns to work and wash and go on the weekends.
I don’t know how much longer I can do these wash and go. It is about to be winter. I need some hair motivation. I don’t have it right now, but I need to find it somewhere. I wanted to flat-iron it out and see what it looked like. Meaning I wanted to do that in my mind. I haven’t made it to plugging in the flat-iron to even attempt to do it.
In cutting off the perm there was no style just aimless cutting. I have no idea what this hair looks like straight. I am a little scared to find out. For all the hair people send me some of your vibes I need HELP!!!
Procrastination
Definition: refers to the counterproductive deferment of actions or tasks to a later time.
This explains me more than a little bit. I started to think of all the things I need to do that I put off to a later time.
1) Crochet blanket
I planned to make for a friend’s daughter crib. By the time I finish it I will need to make it big enough for a twin size bed. I learned one stitch that can make a blanket. I have completed five over the years. None were completed in a timely manner. It just lets others into my world of procrastination.
2) Organize my office.
It isn’t really an office it’s the pile of papers that are sitting in my second bedroom. This has been on my list to do for about three years now.
3) Exercise
I know I am lazy. A character flaw I have been working against for years. Also the fact that I hate exercise doesn’t help. It always brings back the memory of being the fat kid in gym class. I would be sweating in miserable trying to run a mile. Then felt the embarrassment while the entire class waits for me to finish. I am no longer fat since the weight loss. I still need to tighten up and get focused. I have been watching I use to be fat. Why didn’t that existed when I graduated high school big as a whale. This one episode this guy looked unbelievable. It also seemed like he had nothing better to do then be in the gym. Clearly this not my reality if I want a roof over my head and food to eat.
4) Go back to school
I have wanted to do this for a long time. The problem with this is my school loans are paid off. The thought of having more bills just rattles me. Also I haven’t been in school since 1997. The thought of homework makes me nervous. I want to change my career, but I wasn’t the greatest student the first time around. I spent more time trying to avoid doing work then just doing it.
5) Clean my house
Now this is an ongoing problem. I do clean my house on a weekly basis. The problem is how it looks before my weekly cleaning. I had a friend tell me she couldn’t see us as roommates because I am a clean freak. That statement was so far from the truth. I just do not invite anyone over to a dirty house. Manners I learned from my Nana.
It is my plan to work on all these things. If I buckle down I could get things done. I just have to get this laziness out of my system. First order of business figure out how to do that!!!
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